A simple experiment in watching your mind opens a question about free will: are you making decisions, or noticing them happen? I explore thoughts, identity, and self-judgment. Continue reading The Experiment That Shows You’re Not Making Your Decisions
How I stayed sober without the concept of a higher power and why no one is here making decisions Continue reading Staying Sober Without a Higher Power (and What I See Now)
My dad was an NFL player and I hated football. A fractured foot changed how I saw it, and it’s still teaching me about ego, anxiety, and perspective. Continue reading My Dad Was an NFL Player & I Hated Playing Football
Meditation starts self-involved and ends selfless. A talk on self-inquiry, surrender, and what it feels like when decisions make themselves. Continue reading Meditation is Self-Involved Until You Disappear
I talk about the paradox at the center of non-duality: thoughts, feelings, and actions arise on their own, yet the consequences of my choices are still mine. Continue reading There’s Nobody Doing Anything, and Yet I’m Responsible (Marriage, Addiction & Control)
Most of my experience feels like floating awareness. There’s a body, movements happen, thoughts and feelings come and go, but there’s nobody really here. There’s just what’s happening. And inside of that, I play the games of father, partner, worker, and friend. Continue reading I Don’t Have a Special Purpose | A Day in the Life
A professional golfer shares how he rebuilt his life after years of inconsistency and sleepless nights. Continue reading Pain of Discipline or The Pain of Regret | Finding Your Aim w/ Peter Croonquist
What happens when the drugs and alcohol are gone, but you’re bored, angry, anxious, and afraid? Continue reading I’m Sober and Miserable. Now What?
Peter shares his experience hitting rock bottom, the awakening that allowed him to take action, and how doing hard things over instant gratification has shaped the last year of his life. Continue reading Realizing Your Potential – Discipline, Sobriety, & The Heroes Journey w/ Peter Croonquist
I was a rapper, an app developer, and a 12-step recovery guy. COVID put us in lock down and I felt free from fear/anxiety for the first time in probably ever Continue reading Last Talk Before the Move | Spiritual Awakening Journey