We talked about my experience with drug addiction, psychosis, and recovery. We also spoke about 12 step meetings, the pros and cons of suboxone treatment, and the importance of being honest with our doctors (especially if we are in recovery): Continue reading The Last Taboo w/ Eric J. Dias
I used my last bit of dope in a parking lot outside of Papa Johns.
I wrote that sentence inside of an AA meeting…
And I’m not sure what’s supposed to be written next: Continue reading One Hour Closer to Being Free
Last night, Tully Scott joined us in the basement to share some of his story: Continue reading “Alive (Lord Willin’) Logic Remix
I couldn’t sleep. Every few minutes my eyes would look towards the phone to see if she saw the message I had sent. My mind ran circles around pain… Continue reading A Warm Bed in a Cold Room
When heroin is removed, all that remains is the obsession.
When you don’t have it, you’re antsy and anxious and depressed. You can’t enjoy the weather, people, music, movies, or art.
The idea that people can be outside mowing the lawn, or talking on the phone, or smiling and laughing is unfathomable. Continue reading Rock Bottom
Hayes Johnson was homeless, traveling a nomadic lifestyle for the better part of 10 years.
From smoking crystal meth, to vagabonding on trains, to pursuing a path of sobriety; Hayes shares his life experience as a performance artist… Continue reading Inside the Minds Eye w/ Hayes Johnson (Podcast)
Author: Adam Abramowitz Eyes are opened and thoughts of destiny, reality, and awareness flow through me. “Don’t give up”, the song lyric repeats itself as a mantra as I focus on what I want and who I want to be. The man in my head that struggles to break free. Everything is perfect as I view silently ahead to see, tapped into the infinite moment of a human experience… How did I get here? Listening to the album, Dreams, by “The Whitest Boy Alive”, I contemplate the beauty in nature. I experience infinity in everything I see, feel, think, and … Continue reading Mindfulness and Meditation: Not a Monk? Not a Problem
“I have floundered in and out of pain and grief. I have disregarded my own ability to choose the life I want to lead, accepting the unexplainable desire to write with purpose. I’ve isolated myself from the things I used to love, in pursuit of my own goal…” Continue reading Higher Powerlessness and the Illusion of Free-Will (Part 2)
Author: Adam Abramowitz Are we in control? What dictates the thoughts that enter our brains? Are these thoughts ours, or are they a response to the stimulation provided by reality? Can we prevent ourselves from gravitating towards the things we like, pursuing the things we want? It seems to me that everything I know, everything I’ve learned, has been shown to me by another. From an early age, my parents were a prime of example of how I learned and developed into the individual I am today. They gave me a baseline for my own likes and dislikes. They showed … Continue reading Powerlessness and the Illusion of Free-Will (Part 1)
The direction of my life is completely out of my control. I cannot prevent my gut, or my intention. My own desire to write the thing I wish I could read. I’ve found myself contemplating ideas of purpose. Ideas of success. Analyzing and interpreting what these words mean to me. What I want and how to achieve it.
The thing is, I have a dream. I want to be an author. Continue reading “Detox, Recovery, and the Pursuit of a Dream”