“In this podcast, we talk about my experience playing college football while attempting to manage a drug habit, an encounter with a 4 month state of psychosis, and a heavy period of heroin addiction…” Continue reading Taking the Face Mask Off w/ Adam Abramowitz
For 4 months, I traveled the country while Eminem, 50 Cent, and Brad Nowell communicated with me through AM radio stations.
I had a mission, I had a plan, and I had a purpose.
I was supposed to be an artist. Continue reading Psychosis
During a state of psychosis, I tried to be a rapper.
I believed it was my life’s purpose, I believed it was my destiny…I believed I had been bestowed with the gift of flow and my duty, nay, my entire reason for existence, was to record an EP, become a rock star, and change the world.
I had never even performed on stage… Continue reading Let it Flow
“…This isn’t your fault loved ones. I can’t be helped. I love you. I hope your wishes come true in your endeavors.”
In that moment I finished up bottles of benzodiazepines and liquid opiates quickly. I felt the life inside me slowly start to wash away into a silent fading rhythm of my heart and breath. “Here it comes. Finally…” Continue reading The Bottled Suicide: Fear, Depression, & Finding a Purpose
“I lost sense of time. I lost sense of where I was. I lost sense of my thoughts. My head was craned down as I let the tears flow. I could no longer hear the crowd. I couldn’t hear anything, all I could do was feel.” Continue reading State of Psychosis