When you’re taught the principles of Chaos Magick, they advise you to take it slow and ease into the craft.
I ignored all of the advice.
I went full on wizard and the energy I harnessed eventually imploded, leaving me beaten, broken, and confused.
Continue reading Chaos Magick
I guess its just sadness.
That feeling when you wake up in bed and your eyes are open and you’re at your parents house and don’t have a job and you’re 29 years old and you’re just like…
Is this real life? Continue reading I Don’t Know What it Is
In this podcast, Jen shares her experience of going to AA meetings every day in search of God.
She describes how implementing healthy eating, exercise, and sugar restriction reformatted her brain to remove the craving for drugs & alcohol.
And, we discuss the feels felt while approaching the 4th step, an effect that caused Jen to begin writing “Imperfect” as a way to procrastinate on her step work. Continue reading Inside the Minds Eye w/ Jennifer Ann Butler
Coming soon on Inside the Minds Eye Podcast: A conversation with Jennifer Ann Butler- writer, doodler, and intuitively spiritual savant. Butler has spent most of her life struggling with depression. Last October, she began the arduous process of weaning herself … Continue reading “Imperfect” (How I Utilized the Energy of Depression to Write a Book)
Last October, Jennifer Ann Butler changed the direction of her website by taking a personal leap. She had written an essay, a personal piece about her battle with depression. Prior to publishing, Butler spoke of mostly spiritual, holistic topics… Rather than … Continue reading I Survived Myself
What if addiction, eating disorders, bi-polar, ADHD, anxiety, over eating, over-consumption of social media content, depression etc. were just symptoms of a deeper problem; an inability to disconnect from a world that keeps us contained within a box of labels … Continue reading An Introduction to Jennifer Ann Butler
The first time I ever felt a presence of something greater than I could fathom within me, something that I could not understand, had not pursued, nor had I taken more than statistical analyst of its truth, was my freshman year of high school… Continue reading “Destruction & Discovery”
“…This isn’t your fault loved ones. I can’t be helped. I love you. I hope your wishes come true in your endeavors.”
In that moment I finished up bottles of benzodiazepines and liquid opiates quickly. I felt the life inside me slowly start to wash away into a silent fading rhythm of my heart and breath. “Here it comes. Finally…” Continue reading The Bottled Suicide: Fear, Depression, & Finding a Purpose