Cog in the Wheel of Conformity

This morning, while I was smoking my morning cigarette and thinking in my garage, I realized what I want to do a Facebook video on. I am going to try and make it a quick one, a minute and a half tops. I’m gonna share what I have learned about courage, and a new realization on my habitual “hiding” from social media. Its not fear that prevents me from looking at Facebook on days when I publish content, its the fact that as soon as I do, the story I tell myself in my mind isn’t real anymore. The story … Continue reading Cog in the Wheel of Conformity

The “F” Word

Video Recorded by: Adam Abramowitz (November 5th 2:30am) Written by: Adam Abramowitz (October 31st 6:15pm) -Fear, Anxiety, and Self-Doubt- The tension building up to this moment has lasted for almost a week now. I’m sitting at my laptop, bundled up in a windbreaker jacket, hands still cold from the cigarette I snuck outside; a last puff as the sun began its final descent on the eve of Halloween. A little over a week ago, I made a decision to film myself talking about fear, anxiety, and self-doubt. I want to address my own fear of my face, speaking publicly. I … Continue reading The “F” Word

Reality Check

Written by: Charlene Cannon

One of the most interesting things I have found about life is observation. Working at a coffee shop five days a week, I’ve come to really enjoy it.

Sometimes.

When I tell someone my story of why I have stopped smoking (cigarettes and/or weed) the listeners reaction is one of the following:

A.) Awkward head nod: “Good for you.” The End.
B.) Their eyes light up: “Wow! I’m so proud of you Char!”
C.) Sarcastic laugh: “Well that sucks.”
D.) Smile and complete understanding: “That’s awesome girl.”

I wish I could say that it doesn’t affect me, that I’m just proud of myself and want people to know of my accomplishment, but that’s not true.

Because in all honesty, I think about picking up a cigarette and smoking a bowl every single day. Continue reading “Reality Check”

True Sentiment: A Fear of the Human Face

Written by: Travis Goure

For a long time I’ve been deeply frustrated by my inability to express the form of my fear. So now, as it presently occurs to me, I’m surprised to see some of its manifestations, the first and most monstrous of which is my fear of the human face. It is a fear of their expressions, of what I think they’ll say, against what they truly do. It is like when I’ve been in a grocery store, and said something to a clerk which returned a peculiar look, one which reads, to me, that what I said was inappropriate, or obtuse, or taken the wrong way. In those instances I have often spent a week or more replaying that scenario in my mind until I find some strange way of bridging its cold disharmony.

It is nearly impossible for me to hold a conversation without my heart rattling, my legs swaying, and why? Continue reading “True Sentiment: A Fear of the Human Face”